Knowledge is a Burden, Hope Kills and Intelligence Eventually Leads to Insanity

“You cannot always wait for the perfect time…Sometimes you must dare to jump.”

When is a good time to tell a man you can’t give him a child? “Hi! Yeah nice to meet you too…Yeah you can have my number, yeah we can go out sometime, but I can’t ever give you children!” Ha!

It is hardy an appropriate topic to discuss on a first date. But if you wait a while, get to know each other and something becomes of it.  Then you have led the poor guy on and will have to break the news after he has already become emotionally involved! Surely that is wrong?

I have too many questions that don’t seem to have any answers.  I have heard so many people complain about there not being a book on how to be a parent but there aren’t any on how to not be a parent either! What about all of those women out there who can’t have children of their own. Can’t give the man they love a child of his own.  What do they do? What will they do with their lives after they have succeeded in their career choice or whatever other ambitions they choose to pursue. Family becomes even more important when you are older. When the roles reverse and the child becomes the parent. Who will look after me then?

I get angry sometimes! I will be unable to have a child, not because I am infertile. Not because any of my woman parts don’t work correctly. I am all woman and in perfect working order. I can have children. It’s just that stupid medication! It makes me so angry. We are living in the future now. It’s 2013. Why are there no other options? What they are telling me just isn’t good enough! I am so angry! I hate my stupid crappy heart!

These random childish outbursts don’t help anyone though. Anger is not an emotion to be utilised if a positive outcome is to be expected. I have used anger as a fuel for so many years and the outcome was never pretty. I have faced and overcome many adversaries during the course of my life and as a result I have become a stronger, more resilient individual. Perhaps a little more crazy than your average woman these days but I like to think of that as a quality! This issue will not be my downfall, it will the epitome of me!

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